perhaps i was weakened but not broken.
and sometimes down but it's not a giving-up-whitey flag.
and of course the tireness and exhausting that overwhelmed won't stop me.
to convey the divine message is not a burden
but a purpose.
to reveal the truth is not just a responsibity
but a passion and desire should be.
to judge the effort is not me but Him.
to feel that i-am-nothing is not a weakness
but a requirement indeed.

my Prophet, peace be upon him, you know?

he's moderate and simple.
he put all things at the right places,
just nice,
adequately.
his deeeds are quranic-guided,
none from his lust neither nonsense desires.
he is a king but never forget to obey his Master first and foremost,
never a snobby,
never undereastimte others.
he is a true messenger but still a loving and fair husband.
he is a just leader but also a caring and understanding father.
he is the best of mankind,
the excellent examplar.

please laaa...

i am less determined and blur+blank for this semester and i don't know why.
please anis,
don't dissappoint yourself anymore.
please help yourself.
please!

something

i need
to write on,
to confess to,
to voice out through writing,
and Alhamdulillah i can do these at this moment.

moments

weakness, lacks, forgetfulness can't be avoided.
no one is perfect anyway.
that's why there's always room for improvement,
for upgrading.
let's improve ourselves consistently!
let's upgrade ourselves continually!
every single moment is countable, watchable
so make them precious and valuable.
and the most important point is make them pleasured and blessed by Allah :) 

correcting

commenting and complaining are easy but to accept them is tough, i know.
but please, when somebody is trying to correct you,
it's mean that she loves you.
i myself felt irritated when someone try to correct me before
but now when i think back i realised that they are the true friends indeed.

blur

Quran, 30:21
"dan di antara tanda-tanda ( kebesaran) Nya ialah Dia menciptakan pasangan-pasangan untukmu dari jenismu sendiri, agar kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya dan Dia menjadikan di antaramu rasa kasih dan sayang."

if we're meant together,
there must be a piece of love in me for him, right?
ok,i'm sure there's none.
perhaps for someone else.
i know not unless the one You allowed to, o Allah.
guide me through pleaaaaseeee...