just.leave.

seems like i'm the worst.
those all are my very bad.
perhaps i should reconsider of leaving.

be realistic please.

stop living in your ideal world.
do perceive the reality,
the deception,
the pain and ordeal.

human being

Alhamdulillah.
Allah rewarded me a lot of nice companions rather than her.
i would not like to share or confess further about that "her".
let just her be,
with her most-always-right disposition for i've attempt the best as a friend,
if she still consider that.
being accepted by that kind of person is not vital in some cases.

p/s : i just can't assure you in becoming a super awesome buddy
       but yet i surely can consider your shortcomings for the sake of ukhuwwah.

my bad.

one of ikhwah asked me about progress of usrah in MSI.
i knew not how to answer him.
i felt guilty.
it's my effort doesn't enough,
i surely know and realise that.
it's my shortcoming.
ni baru seorang ikhwah,
bila Allah tanya nanti,
how it'l be?

accepting

to hear is to understand.
to understand is to sacrifice.
Allah will pay your sacrifation best,
worry not.

T_T

i've already 21 years old.
but yet still fail
to fully submit to The Great Creator,
to hand the fragile heart over The Owner,
to trust only The Almighty,
to rely on The Exalted alone.
o Allah, please do not let me go astray.