perhaps i was weakened but not broken.
and sometimes down but it's not a giving-up-whitey flag.
and of course the tireness and exhausting that overwhelmed won't stop me.
to convey the divine message is not a burden
but a purpose.
to reveal the truth is not just a responsibity
but a passion and desire should be.
to judge the effort is not me but Him.
to feel that i-am-nothing is not a weakness
but a requirement indeed.

my Prophet, peace be upon him, you know?

he's moderate and simple.
he put all things at the right places,
just nice,
adequately.
his deeeds are quranic-guided,
none from his lust neither nonsense desires.
he is a king but never forget to obey his Master first and foremost,
never a snobby,
never undereastimte others.
he is a true messenger but still a loving and fair husband.
he is a just leader but also a caring and understanding father.
he is the best of mankind,
the excellent examplar.

please laaa...

i am less determined and blur+blank for this semester and i don't know why.
please anis,
don't dissappoint yourself anymore.
please help yourself.
please!

something

i need
to write on,
to confess to,
to voice out through writing,
and Alhamdulillah i can do these at this moment.